The Lost Heiress ARC Giveaway

The Lost Heiress ARC Giveaway

I’ve got some exciting new! The awesome team at Bethany House let me know that there are 2 extra ARCs of The Lost Heiress . . . and that they can go to 2 of my readers!

ARCs, in case you don’t know, are Advance Reader Copies. These are printed up to go out to review sources, but when there are a few left over, well. We get to have fun with them. =) These ARCs look like this:

and aren’t quite final–there will be a few typos, a few things that have been changed in my last round of edits, but the story is there and the changes are few.

SO. How do you get your hands on this books months before it releases in September? Quite simple!

Enter the Rafflecopter giveaway at the bottom of this post!

Of course, if you’re just DYING to read some now, even if you don’t win one of the TWO copies, I have a special treat. The first chapter of The Lost Heiress!

One

Monte Carlo, Monaco
Late August 1910

Temptation sat before her, compelling as the sea. Gleaming silver, green leather, the nearly silent rumble of engine . . .

Brook trailed a gloved hand along the door, cast one glance over her shoulder, and let herself in. She couldn’t stop the grin as she gripped the wheel of the Rolls-Royce. And why should she? Only a fool would leave such a car running right outside her door and not expect her to do something about it.

“Don’t even think it.”

His voice brought laughter to her lips, and she looked up to find her dearest friend at the opposite door—her first sight of him in five months. The warm Riviera wind had tousled his hair, making her wonder where his hat had gone today. “Teach me to drive it, Justin.”

He glared at her with an intensity to match the Mediterranean sun. All manner of men flooded Monaco in pursuit of its casino, and none could glower like the British. Well, perhaps the Russians, but theirs were more scowls than proper glowers. Though, if he expected her to be cowed by the look, he had taken leave of his senses.

He leveled an accusatory finger at her nose. “I’m happy to take you for a drive in my new car, mon amie, but I will be behind the wheel.”

“Come, Justin.” She said his name as it was meant to be said. In French. Soft J and long U, emphasis on the second syllable, the N silent—as she knew no one in his native country did. “Your gift will soon be back in England. We mustn’t waste a moment of its time in Monaco. Get in and teach me.”

“A moment of its time?” But he laughed and slid into the left side of the car, shaking his head. The sun caught his hair and burnished it gold, caught the angles of his face and made it all the stronger. “The prince will have my head for this.”

Brook grinned at him. Once upon a time, she had dreamed that they would fall in love and live happily ever after—before she realized a future duke could never be more than friends with a nobody without a past. Before she came to understand Prince Albert wasn’t really her grandfather. “He will be jealous, you mean. He must always have a chauffeur behind the wheel.” Brook gripped the wheel tighter, until she could feel the thrum of the 40–50 engine in every cell. “Perhaps I will borrow one of the chauffeur’s jackets and surprise him one day—after you’ve taught me.”

Justin pressed a hand to his brow, dark blond hair falling over his fingers. “Heaven help me. I’ll be executed. My poor grandfather will expire from the shock of it, the dukedom will go extinct, and it will be all your fault. All because you grin at me and I can’t say no.”

She grinned all the brighter now. “I don’t intend to race in Grand-père’s road rally—I only want to learn the basics.” She made herself comfortable on the seat, positioning her feet on the pedals on either side of the steering column. She had read books and articles about the advances of the automobile, but the pages hadn’t come close to conveying the power that came coursing through the floorboard. It was almost as heady a feeling as having a spirited horse under her. Almost.

Justin slid closer, casting her a sideways look she couldn’t read—making fear knot in her chest. She’d been waiting months for him to return, had begun to worry he never would, that his family would succeed in keeping him forever in the Cotswolds of England, and he would forget his promises to investigate the seal on the old, yellowed envelope she had pressed to his palm five months ago.

She cleared her throat. “Did you learn anything? In England, I mean?”

Justin adjusted the position of her hands on the wheel. “Of course I did. Literature and mathematics—”

“Justin Wildon.”

“—philosophy and science.” He ducked his head as if to make sure her feet were where they ought to be. Or to avoid her gaze. “I came across the papers of a German not long ago. Fellow by the name of Albert Einstein, a physics professor. Have you read him? He has interesting theories—”

“Lord Harlow.” She narrowed her eyes at him, but he still didn’t look up.

“—about Newtonian physics and something called special relativity, which I know you’d find interesting.” He straightened, gaze still on her feet. “There are pedals for clutch, brake, and accelerator. Throttle is on the steering column. You must press upon brake and clutch to begin.”

“I know.” She pushed them without taking her eyes off his strong profile. “And you know well what I mean.”

He finally swung his face her way again, jaw set. “We can either talk about that or you can learn to drive. Choose one, for I don’t intend to open such a conversation with you behind the wheel of my very new, very expensive automobile.”

“Bad as all that, is it?” She prayed again she could live with the answers she’d asked him to find. For eight years now she had known only who she wasn’t—not the illegitimate daughter of opera star Collette Sabatini and Prince Louis Grimaldi, heir to the throne of Monaco. Not the petite-fille of the reigning Prince Albert, as his wife, Princess Alice, had shouted for all the palace to hear before she left him. So if not a daughter or granddaughter to the only family she knew . . . then who?

“Release the hand brake, first of all. There by the wheel, on your right.”

Drawing in a long breath, she gripped the wooden handle and moved it as she had seen their drivers do, then checked for carriages or cars in the street. Seeing none, she mimicked the pedal work she had observed, moving her foot from the brake and aiming it at the accelerator.

“Brook!”

Quoi?” She jammed her foot back on the brake.

Justin ran a hand over his face. “Attendez! Please—wait for my instruction.”

Another grin tickled her lips and pushed away the phantoms of the unknown. “When have I ever awaited instruction? But did I not let my first arrow fly with admirable accuracy? Am I not a better shot with a pistol than you? Can I not out-fence any young lord?”

At last a breath of laughter relaxed his shoulders. Then he caught her gaze and held it, his eyes as deep as the ocean. “You think I don’t know the thoughts rampaging through your mind? But I assure you, you’ve nothing to worry about. The news I bring is good.” He gave her fingers a reassuring squeeze. “But it will change everything. You shouldn’t try to digest it when behind the wheel of a car.”

She nodded and pushed the questions aside. For now. “Now I check the street again and transfer my foot from brake to accelerator while easing off the clutch.”

“A statement rather than a question, I see.” His fingers left hers as he turned around to look at the street. “All clear. Angle the wheel hard to the left and gently—gently—press that foot to the accelerator.”

She obeyed, reveling in the increased thrum of the engine. Easing the car forward, a laugh slipped from her lips. She straightened the wheel and headed for the opera house. She could get the hang of this, given a bit more practice. Perhaps she could even convince Grand-père to let her drive one of theirs.

Assuming she remained in Monaco. Risking a glance toward Justin, she barely kept from taking one hand off the wheel to play with the two pearls dangling from the gold filigree of her necklace. “You did verify I’m English, then?”

He shot a look at the fingers she had nearly lifted. As if he knew exactly what habit she’d nearly indulged. “We already knew that.”

She sighed and let off the accelerator when they came upon a slow-moving barouche. “We knew Maman said so, but she was hardly in her right mind those last weeks.” And for so many years, Brook had hoped and prayed that that had been the lie, as Grand-père so often assured her.

“It was right enough. You are indeed English. Which, assuming you’ve looked in a mirror now and again, oughtn’t to surprise you.”

Right on cue, the wind cast a tendril of her pale hair before her eyes. She certainly had nothing in common with the rest of the Grimaldis. How many times had she wished for their rich dark hair and fathomless brown eyes? The skin that the sun could kiss yet not burn? A delicate snort was all the response she could manage.

Justin loosed a sigh nearly lost under the purr of the engine. “The story she told seems to be true—she was in York with the opera at the time but did not have a child of her own.”

Had Brook been anywhere else, she would have let her eyes slide closed so that she could summon the image of beautiful Maman, try to conjure the sound of her sterling soprano. But the memory had faded over the years, until now it was little more than a crystal echo.

“So Prince Louis was right to keep me always at a distance—I am not his daughter.” At least she wasn’t another cause for scandal in the Grimaldi line. But it also meant Maman was not her mother. And Grand-père . . . He hadn’t wanted her to ask these questions. She was, he had said, the only member of his family who acted like family, and what would he have if she left?

But she had to. She couldn’t live her life as a pretender. The people were already shouting against him, how much worse would it be if he continued to support her when she had no real claim to him, other than a bone-deep love?

The barouche they followed turned down a side road, and Brook pressed on the accelerator. “What am I, then? A farmer’s daughter? An abandoned waif?”

His chuckle helped ease the band around her chest. “Mais non. It is as we imagined—you are a nymph from the fairy world.”

“A naiad you mean, ruling over a—”

“—a brook. How could I have forgotten?” He captured the curl that obscured her vision and gave it a playful tug. “One of my favorites of our recent stories—‘Brook of the Brook.’ And where is my fairy princess taking us?”

She smiled, but even the thought of the stories they created and picnics atop the ramparts overlooking Port Fontvieille couldn’t erase the questions. “The theater. I have a ballet lesson. I keep threatening to join the Ballet Russes—Sergei says I am as talented as his Russian dancers.”

“An imp more than a naiad, surely.” He tugged again on her curl and tucked it behind her ear. “I can only imagine how mad that drives the prince.”

“It hardly matters what I do.” She slowed as her turn approached and prepared to wrestle the wheel around. Her heart thudded, but she drew in a deep breath. If she slipped, Justin would catch the wheel, would keep them from harm.

“You will not take the stage.” Justin sounded far harsher than Grand-père had. Perhaps her tone had been too blasé.

Still, she could hardly resist teasing him—and fishing for more information. “Excuse me, your lordship, but why not? My mother was on the stage.”

“Collette would have been the first to tell you not to follow her example. And she was not your mother.”

“Quite right—I am an orphan, an unknown. Lizette Brook—a nobody.”

“You most certainly are not.”

“Who am I, then?” She glanced his way, brows arched.

“Eyes on the road!”

Hopefully he saw only that she turned her face square to the windscreen and not that she rolled those eyes in the process. “Was I right about the envelope? The seal?”

Maman had left her with boxes upon boxes of correspondence, faded letters from faded loves. But one box of them had been different—they were in English. The tone was different too—not at all what amorous patrons had usually sent to Collette. And more, as she’d searched through the letters in the flat she’d shared with Maman before moving to the palace after her death, Brook had seen a variation of her own name on the ones on the top of the stack. Give Little Liz a kiss from her papa. But it had been signed only with Yours Forever, and the one envelope with the seal upon it had no address.

Yet again she had to resist the urge to touch her necklace. The necklace Maman had confessed with her last breath had belonged to Brook’s true mother. The woman killed in the carriage accident from which Collette had rescued Brook. The my love those English letters were written to?

“The seal was helpful. Brook.” He sighed again and rested a hand on her shoulder. “It led me to your mother. I saw a portrait of her, and it might as well have been you in a bustle. We found her. We found you.”

Her fingers curled around the wheel so tightly she feared she’d leave an impression in the wood. “Who, then? Who am I?”

“We’re nearly to the theater—pull over here. Foot off the gas, press the brake and then the clutch. Turn, turn.” His fingers covered hers as he helped her guide the Rolls-Royce into an open spot nearer the casino than the theater. The moment the car halted, he reached over her to engage the hand brake and then switched off the magneto. The absence of the engine’s noise barely made a difference with all the chatter from the street.

But Brook didn’t look at the gaily-clad aristocrats making their way into the Casino Monte Carlo—she looked at the muscle gone tense in his jaw. “Justin.” Her voice came out in a whisper so soft she couldn’t be sure he heard her. “Tell me.”

He leaned against the green leather of the seat, elbow atop it, and rested his hand on her shoulder again. “You are a baroness.”

“A . . . what?” She knew the title—one couldn’t be the friend of a duke’s grandson without getting lessons in the British peerage. Which was why she knew she shouldn’t have such a title unless by marriage. “How could I be a baroness?”

The wind tried to toss that curl into her face again, but he caught it and tucked it away once more. “From your mother, who was a baroness in her own right. Passed from her mother, and her mother before her. You are Elizabeth Brook Eden, Baroness of Berkeley—one of only a handful of peeresses whose title is by right and not courtesy. And the heiress to a large estate.”

Little Liz. Maman had kept her name, just made it more French—Lizette Brook. Choosing to go by her middle name after Collette’s death had been one of Brook’s many small rebellions. Her eyes slid shut, her fingers found the warm pearls dangling from her necklace. Her mother’s necklace. Her mother. “What was her name?”

“Elizabeth as well, born with the surname Brook, which is where your middle name came from. Countess of Whitby.”

“Countess?” Her eyes flew open again. “My father was an earl?”

Justin’s free hand found hers, and he linked their fingers together. “Is an earl, Brooklet.”

Had she been standing, she would have had to sit. “My father . . .”

“Is very eager to meet you.” He squeezed her hand and ran his thumb over hers. “It’s time to come home, Lady Berkeley.”

Brook drew in a long breath seasoned with fruit from the markets, the spice of Italian cooking, and the salty tang of the Mediterranean Sea.

All her life, all her memory, this had been home. All the world she’d needed. “I . . . I must absorb all this.”

“Of course you must.” He lifted her hand and kissed her knuckles as he had done ever since they played knight and damsel as children, back when she had dreamed it was real. But his eyes remained locked on hers now. “I know you have been praying about this as much as I have been. This is the answer to those prayers, mon amie. This is where the Lord wants you. And I will be with you every step of the way.”

No doubt he was right. And no doubt when her thoughts stopped crashing like waves in a tempest, the peace of the Lord would descend. But right this moment . . . “I must go. Au revoir, Justin.” She leaned over, kissed him on either cheek, and let herself out of the car.

A warm breeze gusted up the street. Brook touched her hat to make sure it was secure, then let her fingers fall to her necklace. A baroness, daughter of an earl. Of all the scenarios she had entertained, that had never been one of them.

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Thoughtful About . . . Vacationing with Jesus

Thoughtful About . . . Vacationing with Jesus

Last weekend I had the joy of filling for my dad in the pulpit at our church. I’ve done this once before, but it was many, many years ago. Like, before Rowyn was born, I think…so yeah. It’s been a while, LOL. But I’d just been thinking, a day or two before he asked me, that I wanted to start expanding my speaking repertoire–you know, so that it included something other than my publishing story. 😉

As I prayed about what to talk about, my mind kept going back to the topic of vacation. Summer is finally upon us, so
vacation is a topic on a lot of different minds, right? When can we go? Where
will we go? How long can we stay? How much will it cost? What do I have to do
to prepare? For a lot of us, vacation isn’t about rest, it’s about doing—preparing to go, preparing to
travel, preparing for each day while we’re there, preparing to get it all home,
and then preparing to get back to normal life.


I can’t tell you how many
times I’ve heard someone say that they need a vacation from their vacation!


Personally, David and I have
made it a point to make our vacations restful. We don’t do much planning, and
the most exciting thing on our agendas is usually to visit a museum or go out
to dinner. Otherwise, we’re relaxing. Resting. Rejuvenating our minds and
spirits.


This is a necessary process. Studied have shown that having a break from work actually makes a worker more productive. And God himself recognized this. In the Law of Moses, we’ve seen how
the Lord gave very specific instructions on rest. We have the Sabbath laws. The
Sabbath year laws. The Feasts and festivals. All of these are meant to be times
when man takes a break from the grind of daily life.

But they’re something else
too, aren’t they? They’re also meant to be times when we take a break from
normal life…to worship and praise Him.

Let’s look at Matthew
11, specifically at the well known verses 28-30:

  28 Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy
laden, and I will give you rest.
29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am
gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
30 For My yoke is easy and My
burden is light.”

Jesus isn’t just talking here
about a physical rest, right? He’s talking about rest for our souls.

I want to share another
translation, this time from the Message. 

“Are you tired? Worn out?
Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your
life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with
me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything
heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live
freely and lightly.”


A friend of mine claims this
as her favorite verse, so I’ve read it quite a few times. I like how in
addition to the words “tired” and “worn out” he also speaks to that spiritual
exhaustion—“burned out on religion.” Not on faith, but on religion. On the traditions, the processes, the expectations, the
demands. Those can be so exhausting. They, like our jobs, are doing. And sometimes we need a rest from
that in the worst way.

I also love the insight into
how we’re going to find that, which is kinda an extrapolation of “Come to Me”
and “take my yoke upon you and learn from me.”

“Get away with me. Walk with
me. Work with me. Watch how I do it.”

Wait—maybe this is a bad
example after all. What does he say here? Work
with me
.


Well that doesn’t fit the
idea of vacation at all!


But that’s just the Message.
If we go back to the New King James, we don’t see that in there, right? It just
says “take my yoke upon you.” Well…that doesn’t use the word work, to be sure. But what’s a yoke?
It’s something we put on animals…so they can work.


Hm.


And it goes on with “learn
from Me.” Okay, so let’s learn from Jesus. We see him doing plenty of things.
Certainly, among them are traveling to observe the holy days—holidays. But even
then, what is he doing? Healing the sick. Cleansing the lepers. Casting out
demons. Preaching. Teaching.


Working—but not toiling at a
9-5. He’s doing the Father’s work.


So then…is doing the
Father’s work…rest?


That’s quite a thought,
isn’t it?

 
Though to be sure, even Jesus had to get away from the crowds. Away from
that hands-on work. In those times, we see Him slipping away to pray. To
commune with the Father.

As matters of faith often do, this idea of going to Him for our rejuvenation reminds me of my kids.

When my kids are bored, do
you know what they do? They come to me. When they’re hungry…they come to me.
When they’ve accomplished something they’re proud of…they come to me. When
they’re hurt…they come to me. When they’re upset…they come to me. When they’re excited…they come to me. When they’re
worried…they come to me. When they’re tired…they come to me.

They curl up in my lap. And
even though I can’t often do
anything, it doesn’t matter. All they want is to know that Mama’s there. They
want to curl up in my lap and be my baby. They want to be surrounded by my
love. And after a few minutes, they’re refreshed. They’re ready to put aside the
exhaustion or the scrape or bruise, the argument or the anger. They’re ready to
go back to their game or their project or their work.
For anyone who has read my Culper Series, you’ll be familiar with the Puritan prayers I included, taken from Valley of Vision. This is one I used in the second book, which came to mind when I was thinking about this:

“Blessed Lord, let me climb
up near to Thee, and love, and long, and plead, and wrestle with Thee, and pant
for deliverance from the body of sin, for my heart is wandering and lifeless,
and my soul mourns to think it should ever lose sight of its beloved. Wrap my
life in divine love, and keep me ever desiring Thee, always humble and resigned
to Thy will, more fixed on Thyself, that I may be more fitted for doing and
suffering.”

Rest. That’s what Jesus
offers. But we don’t get it by going away. We don’t get it by stopping what
we’re doing. We don’t get it by focusing on us.
We get it by focusing on Him.
By crawling up into our Father’s lap. By letting the Spirit act through us.
We don’t get it by stopping out work. We get it by doing His work.
And when take our vacation in the lap of our Abba Father, then a few minutes or hours is all it takes. We come back refreshed, ready to do His work–and certainly not in need of another vacation to recover from it.

Cover Design – Through the Waters

Cover Design – Through the Waters

A couple weeks ago I had the pleasure of a return client–always fun. =) A couple months ago I designed a simple cover for her vintage-era novel, The Eyes of the Heart.

Embassie got back in touch with me to say she was ready to do the cover for her next book, Through the Waters.

Set in the turbulent Civil Rights movement in Alabama, Through the Waters needed a heroine on the cover, in era-appropriate clothing, and a lovely backdrop of Alabama, perhaps with Spanish moss hanging. I headed over to Shutterstock to look and quickly put together a pretty little lightbox. =)

I always try to find an image that nails, up front, the look I’m going for. Failing that…I get creative.

Creativity was necessary here. The images I could find of women in the right style of dress didn’t fit the heroine’s physical description. But I found two dresses I really liked, and the woman had her back to the camera, so I could tweak the rest. My first choice was this one, in purple.

I downloaded this image, deleted her background, and got to work on skin tone. The heroine is an African American, so I selected all the skin visible, increased the saturation, and darkened a bit until I got a beautiful shade of brown that matched the model Embassie provided that her character was based on.

I really liked how that looked. But Embassie said that she always either wore her hair up or in loose curls. With the way the hat was here, we got no hint of hair whatsoever. I decided to change that so found a hand-dandy photo of a girl with lovely black hair.

I chose this one solely because of the way her hair was laying over her shoulder–just waiting to become a ponytail. 😉 And voila!

I really, really liked how that looked, so I chose a background and got down to composing the cover. My first thought was this one with the lovely pinks and purples…

I put them together (though it required copying the grass over and again to get it to go down far enough), zooming the girl in to fill the whole right side.

Next, I added an Action called “Nashville,” that colorizes the whole thing.

I liked the vintage-photo feel that gave it, so I went ahead and added the title and author’s name.

But of course, I wanted a little extra something…and needed to add the series title too. So I chose a flourish and put it both under the title and her name. And voila, the finished version of Round 1.

I sent this to Embassie for her take, and she liked it…then asked if she could see another option. Being a wise woman, she knows that having choices can be a fabulous thing. 😉 So I went back to Shutterstock and this time chose a bright red dress on the same model for a splash of color.

Going about things just as I did with the purple dress, I deepened her skin tone to that perfect shade of brown and added the same hair.

For her background, I went with this Spanish-moss-draped branch that gave a fun peek out into a field.

Embassie had mentioned a little house that could be in the cover, so I also found a photo of a small, rundown-looking house.

Putting the house in the background and sizing it appropriately, I got this.

I liked the frame that the moss and branch provided, so I went ahead and put in the girl.

The pop of red was fun, so I went ahead and added the title, etc., again, this time framing it in that white space.

I sent it off to Embassie…who liked this one too. =) She couldn’t decide between them, so of course did the logical thing and asked if we could put Woman #1 on Background #2.

And naturally, we did just that…and found our winner!

I really love how it seems like she’s looking back at the house, and how the images came together so well! Embassie was thrilled too, so there have it. Through the Waters, a sure-to-be-exciting historical romance that will be coming soon!

Thoughtful About . . . Support

Thoughtful About . . . Support

This is mostly going to be an “I’m so grateful” post. =) Because sometimes, we just need to take the time for those.

I saw a blog post last week that got me to thinking. It’s about how artistic pursuits aren’t silly, and begins with this young mom talking with another young mom at a playground. Stranger-mom says of her husband: “He wrote for years before we got married,” she confessed, “but now we have kids and I told him to put that silliness away.”

I don’t know this blogger, much less the couple in question. But my writer-self ached for that husband at those words. (Same for the blogger–a post worth reading.)

I’ve always been a writer. And I’ve been so incredibly blessed to always have people around me who supported that. My parents never once told me to stop my silliness and come do something more constructive. They never once told me to keep my feet on the ground and my head out of the clouds. They never once said, “Maybe you should consider doing something else with your life.”

From the surprise party my family threw in 2011,
when I’d signed a contract for the Culper Ring Series

They told me I could be anything. Do anything. They smiled when I said I was working on another story. They read them and praised them. They bragged about my accomplishments. And I know even today that my mom always has some of my bookmarks in her purse, ready to talk me up and tell everyone about her daughter, the novelist.

Thanks, Mom and Dad, for your endless support. Would I have had the strength to stick out this crazy-long process without you always telling me I could do anything? I’m not sure.

Then I fell in love young. David knew from the get-go that I was a writer, and that if he intended to have a life with me, he better accept that–more, I warned him early on that whoever I married would have to have a “real job” to support the family, so that I could write. I knew well it might take a while for that writing to bring in any money, but I also offered the happy thought that maybe it would take off and be our retirement plan. 😉

David always supported my dreams. More, he rewrote his own to support mine better. He has started a publishing company for me. He has kept going in a job that he doesn’t exactly love so I didn’t have to go out and find other work. He reads everything I write, and he brainstorms with me when I’m stuck.

I know there are writers out there whose spouses don’t support their crazy-writing-habit. Who think it’s silly, or not worthwhile, or whatever. I’m so grateful to David for not being one of those. For being, instead, the kind of husband who says, “What can I do to help you get more writing done? I can take Xoe to ballet this week. I can pick up dinner. Just let me know.”

I’ve been so blessed…and I know there are so many people out there who aren’t supported like I am. And that makes me wonder how they manage to do the things they do.

How do you homeschool if your husband isn’t totally on board, supporting and helping out?

How do you chase your dreams if you’re surrounded by people who tell you that you can’t, or you shouldn’t?

How do you hold onto a good attitude if you’re fighting every day just to be you?

To my younger readers who are just starting out in life, I would say this: make it clear, always, who you are and what you need in your life. Know those things that you require to be the person you want to be–whether it’s an artistic pursuit, faith, sports, or whatever–and don’t compromise. Don’t ever think you can give up being you to get something else–the husband, the good job, whatever. Follow your calling, your dreams. And let those around you know that you need their support in that.

To my readers who are parents, I would say this: don’t clip your kids’ wings. Even if that thing they love makes no sense to you, have faith that God fashioned them just so, and your job, while certainly involving speaking reason and logic, is also to tell them that dreams are worth chasing–and worth working for. Help them know how to work for it.

To my readers whose parents are trying to stretch their wings once their kids are out of the house, I say this: encourage them to follow God’s calling, no matter where that takes them, and rejoice in their freedom to do so. They sacrificed so much to raise you–cheer them on now, and be willing to sacrifice for them. Be proud of them, as they have been of you.

To my readers who have spouses with big dreams, I say this: be willing to step out in faith. To let them step out in faith. Big things are only ever accomplished with risk. Dreams are only ever achieved when someone dares to let go of what seems safe and steady. Respect that their desires aren’t silly–not if it’s part of God’s calling on their life.

Don’t make the people in your life have to struggle to feel like themselves in a world that wants to mold them into a box. Encourage them to break that mold. To spread their wings. To take risks. To sacrifice. Don’t ever, ever be the cause of someone else giving up on something they love just because you deem it “silly.” Be, instead, the person they thank in that acceptance speech. The person they never could have succeeded without.

And be grateful when they do the same for you. Because we all have those dreams. And none of us can reach them on our own.

Thoughtful About . . . Jealousy, Authority, and School

Thoughtful About . . . Jealousy, Authority, and School

It’s going to be interesting to see if I can pull together the seemingly-unrelated thoughts flying through my head today. 😉 Stick around for the ride and see what happens, LOL.

I’ll start with a confession: I hate award season. Not Hollywood award season (which I kinda like seeing all the gowns from…), but book award season. It starts now and goes into the fall, and every other week it seems like finalists and winners to some award or another are being announced. And I’m a meanie head. Because I get so tired of seeing those lists, and not for a pretty reason. It’s jealousy, pure and simple. Have I ever mentioned that I’m a competitive person? I’m SUCH a competitive person! And I know this about myself. I try to guard myself against it. For that reason, I don’t even enter awards.

And yet even so, when those lists come out, in come those thought: I want to win something too! Why do I never win anything? Are those books better than mine?

Seriously, this isn’t a pretty confession. See? Yucky, and I hate having those thoughts. I certainly try not to entertain them, to let them linger. Because I don’t want to be that person. I don’t want to walk in bitterness. I don’t want to fall into the Pit of Perpetual Comparison–it ain’t a nice place to be. But it’s one I tend toward.

It’s one a lot of us tend toward, I think. If not in accomplishments, then in looks. In possessions. In whose kids are smarter/more advanced/more polite/taller/you name it. In whose house is cutest/biggest/neatest. In whose car is newest. In who volunteers more. Who makes the healthiest meals. Who… You get the picture.

There was a time I when I thought my competitiveness was a good thing, so I didn’t bother to check it–hey, it made me valedictorian, right? There was a time when I realized it was a bad thing but didn’t know how to check it–after all, I can’t help it, right?

Now I know better. Now I know that like all other emotions, I may not be able to help that first feeling, but I can help what I do with it. I can help what I linger on. I can help where I dwell.  Now I realize that anything that makes me bitter or depressed is something to get away from, fast…and something to rebuke.

How often do we really do that though? Which leads me (hey hey!) into authority.

Most of us are pretty content to have authority in some parts of our lives. We certainly want our kids to obey us. We want those people we supervise at work to follow our lead or listen to our instructions. We love being able to make sound decisions and follow them through.

So…why are so many of us so afraid to claim the authority in those matters we can’t see? Why would we rather wallow in it when we’re upset or down or in pain or angry, rather than stop, turn our hearts to God, and banish those thoughts by the power of Jesus, granted to us through the Holy Spirit?

Do we feel silly? Uncertain? I’m not sure of the answer to that. But I know that I always hesitate to let go of the negative. It’s easier to wallow, and it makes us feel…right. Like we deserve to linger in that feeling. It makes us the center of attention–our own, if no one else’s. It keeps our focus squarely on ourselves, and when no one else is paying attention…

But it’s a trap. Seriously. You don’t want that kind of attention, even from yourself. If you refuse to think it, refuse to feel sorry yourself, ask the Lord to take those thoughts away and even–gasp–banish them in the name of Jesus…it’s pretty amazing how quickly our hearts and minds forgive. Or heal. Or feel like maybe we can do that thing that had seemed impossible five short minutes before.

We have that authority, folks. When Jesus was instructing us in it, he didn’t say, “And if you say in regards to that mountain, ‘Lord, will you please move it out of my way? If it’s your will, I mean,’ it will be cast into the sea.”

What he say to do? To “say to that mountain, ‘Be removed,’ and it will be cast into the sea.”

We have that authority. Through Him, through the Holy Spirit, we can move mountains–and that goes for the mountains within us and within our family, in our everyday lives. We have that authority, through Him, to live victorious lives completely independently of anything we win, of any acclaim. We have the authority to find Joy in every circumstance.

I don’t know about you, but there are still times when I issue an order to my kiddos and am kinda surprised when they listen. I mean, why should they? Who am I? Sometimes I still feel like a kid myself, though I’ve been at this parenting gig for a shocking 9.5 years. But they do listen. Because I’m their mother. Because I have that authority over them–it’s a natural authority, and it’s one I’ve been careful to cultivate correctly over the years.

Though it doesn’t keep Rowyn from saying every…single…day “I don’t want to read! I don’t want to do my spelling! I don’t want to do my math right now!” he’s saying it as he puts his butt into his chair and gets his work out. As he’s getting out his pencil. He’s saying it knowing full well that I’m going to reply with, “You’re going to do it anyway.”

But if one day I said, “Yeah, okay. Whatever. Do what you want”? What do you think that kid’s going to do?

Go play. That’s what.

And that’s the same thing our emotions do. If we give them permission, they run rampant. If we school them, they get in line.

And now that I’ve successfully tied my 3 topics together, I’m going to wind this up. 😉 See, we only have 2 days left in our school year (woo hoo!), and we’re all looking forward to a break from the structure. But we also all know that it does nothing to the authority. I may not be doing as much teaching over the next 3 months (still some, because that’s just part of our lives–they ask questions, and we find the answers), but I’m still Mommy. I still get to say, “Time to read. Time to clean up. Time for bed.”

Just like to those negative thoughts inside my own head, I get to say, “Time to go away. Time to focus on blessings. Time to praise the Lord.” And you know what? Jealousy and bitterness and depression have a might hard time coexisting with praise. They’re gonna flee. They might try to come back, but I can send them away again.

And keep on doing it until the good feelings catch up.

Cover Design – Turning Point

Cover Design – Turning Point

I recently had a very interesting and new-to-me project come my way. No doubt you’ve seen the ebook collections out and about these days, where authors with similarly-themed books package them together and sell them digitally for one low price. These “box sets” (quotes because they’re digital so not technically in a box, LOL) are a great way to try out new authors along with ones you already know you love.

And as a designer, they’re super fun…and rather challenging…to find an image for!

Jill Williamson contacted me about designing such a box set for her and 6 other authors of inspirational young adult novels. The genres in the set range from contemporary to fantasy to science fiction. We have both male and female protagonists. Very different themes and styles. The thing they all have in common is that they focus on a turning point in the characters’ lives.

That’s the title of the collection: Turning Point. And here are the front covers of the 7 books that are a part of it.

As you can see, the covers are as diverse as the styles. I certainly couldn’t just take a color or image common to them all and run with that. So instead I considered that Turning Point theme. What would capture the idea of a turning point in an image? A few thoughts sprang to mind or were suggested by the authors:

~ A road
~ A crossroad sign
~ A shot of someone wearing Converse shoes, standing beside an arrow drawn onto the road
~ A gate

The authors were open to either a graphic style or a photographic style, so my options were wide open. I played with a few of these ideas, like so…

But the group agreed they wanted brighter colors, so I set that particular background aside and went on the hunt for color. I was pretty stoked when I found this one.

I liked the bright colors, and also that it was at street-level, with that road in the forefront and the horizon in the center. That left plenty of room for me to insert some teens. Going off that first image above, they liked that both genders were there but that they didn’t look like a couple–some of the books have romance but some don’t. They suggested perhaps even adding in a third teen.

So off I went on the hunt for teen silhouettes. I found these 3 at the beach.

Feeling confident that these two images would give the group of authors what they were looking for, I put them together.

The general idea is there in this, though the teens look more like they’re floating above the road than standing on it. The solution? A shadow. To create a perfect one, I duplicated their image, flipped it, skewed and stretched it, and then faded it out to about 60% opacity.

Muuuch better, right? I even bent the shadow a bit where it went over the leaves in the foreground.

So there’s the main image. Now for the font. I wanted the title to be a huge part of this design and tried several different fonts before I found one everyone liked. We ended up with Pretzel.


Looks pretty standard, right? But it has nice, thick letters, which was important to my plan. Because, you see, I wanted to turn those words so they looked like they were sitting on the road too.

I achieved this by rasterizing the font layers so I could I alter the perspective of each word. I also applied a gradient to the layer to make the words darker near the ground and lighter up higher, nearer the light source. Then, mimicking what I did with the silhouettes, I duplicated those font layers, flipped them upside down, and stretched and skewed them so they, too, have a shadow.

The only thing left for the front was the subtitle!

So there we have the front cover of the box set…but yet to be done is to make it look like a box set. 😉 I knew from the get-go that the authors would like the spine of the books to have their cover down at the bottom, and then of course the titles.

Now, in some of the box sets like this I’ve seen, each title is written in the same font…but I thought it would be fun to match the font used on each book’s cover. Fun–but a bit of a challenge! Luckily, I’ve become graphic-design-minded enough that I’m always taking note of fonts and trying to identify them, so I already had mental notes on what a few of them were. A few of the authors knew what font was used on theirs. One I actually hand-drew, LOL. Otherwise, I found exact or very-near matches on www.dafont.com.

I then took that sunset-y street image to use as a background for the spines, dividing it at regular intervals. I put on the titles, the author names, and the thumbnail of each book cover. Then I flattened the image, selected each 1/2 each spine segment, and saved it as a separate file. Here’s an example of one.

Then off I went to my 3D software that lets me create a box. After determining the right sizing, I built 7 books into it, adjusted the widths correctly, and put each spine onto one of the books. Here’s the result! 

I had a lot of fun on this one, and my hope is that I managed to capture the personality of each book with those individualized spines, and yet draw the all together with the vague but compelling cover image…and give it little extra twist with the treatment of the title font. What do you think?

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